Tonight’s the first night I’ve lost it in so long. I hate feeling like everyone just wants something from me. Whether it be money, sex, rides, or just someone to lean on when it’s convenient.
I thought I was done with you of all people too. I thought I had my final goodbye. That night was supposed to help me move on. It didn’t at all. It just made me miss you even more. I want to just talk to you more than ever and I can’t. I won’t.
You were the ONE PERSON who didn’t make me feel like you wanted to get something out of me. That’s what makes this so fucking hard. Fuck you for letting everything go south. I want to hate you SO bad but it’s not possible.
And fuck you too. Don’t come into my room and kiss me then call me by your ex-girlfriends’ name.
I don’t even know what to say to everything that’s going on in my life right now.
School is killing me. People are disgusting me. I want my friends. My cat. And to sleep forever and just never wake up.
